I huddled in a stranger’s tiny bathroom as tears dripped down my face and onto my new outfit. Outside, I heard music and laughter. My face burned with shame as I recalled my conversation with the hostess of the party just a few minutes earlier.
“You and your husband must be so excited,” she commented.
“What do you mean?” I asked, wrinkling my nose with confusion.
Gesturing to my stomach, she said, “You know, about the coming arrival.”
My heart dropped and I realized she thought I was pregnant, when I wasn’t. I willed myself to laugh this off and pretend it was no big deal.
“Oh, I’m not pregnant,” I said quickly, with a dismissing gesture of my hand. “So, tell me more about your grandkids.”
Somehow I finished the conversation, then rushed to the bathroom to cry in private. I took deep breaths to calm down, promising myself I would find my husband in the crowd and beg him if could we please just make an exit as quickly as possible.
I wanted to blame this awful situation on the hostesses’ rude behavior. (Hint: unless you know for SURE, never, ever ask a woman about a pregnancy!) But the truth was, I was 100 lbs overweight at that time in my life, and I had been mistaken for being pregnant a number of times.
Every single time was a horrible reminder of my failed attempts to control my eating and weight.
Whether you are overweight, as I was, or your weight is within the normal range, almost every woman in our society today struggles sometimes with food and body issues.
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